Incident 1:The yellow ambassador was cruising peacefully through the newly reconstructed road, from Mejia to Durgapur. I was sitting in the back seat with a co-passenger. The passenger in the front seat was chatting animatedly with the driver. I was comfortably daydreaming. The day was unusually hot, aiding my daydreaming, even though the occasional jerks woke me up to the present circumstances.
As the car was passing through the village of Maliara, several kids blocked us. They gathered around the car and asked for donations of Saraswati Puja. Our driver did not relent. After much haggling, the kids demanded ten rupees. Mr. Driver said that he went through the village now and then and he would give them the money some other time. But the kids were adamant about their demands. From the back seat of the car I could see the face of the driver in the rear view mirror. It was getting darker every second. He handed out a five rupee coin and said that they would get the rest later.
Now the atmosphere was really heating up. But remember my reader, we are talking about kids. Nothing to fear from them! Or so I thought until something very unexpected happened.
The group was steadily becoming loud-mouthed. One of them laid flat on the hood of the car, with his legs firmly planted on the road. He called out loud, ‘We won’t let you go until you give us the money...’ Our driver roared the engine to intimidate the little hero. But he was far from being intimidated. He shouted back, ‘Go on! Run the car over me! I won’t budge! (it stands like this after translating his strong accent)’
He looked at us with threatening eyes. The other kids were also looking at us with eyes of contempt, anger and challenge. Their mute eyesight screamed out, ‘Don’t try to over smart us. We won’t let you pass as long as we have life in our bodies...’
It was a curious little moment. I could not decipher my own feelings towards the children, hardly any older than twelve years. Was I angry at them? Or was I admiring their audacious display? Or was I worried about the future they would land up in if they did not change their attitude towards life—to take everything by force? Perhaps, I was feeling all three emotions.
Before the tension blew out of proportions, our driver relented sensibly. He handed out a ten rupee note and we drove on.
Intermission:On our rest of the way to Durgapur, I thought about this little incident and a lot of older memories came back. But before I go into my memories, let us ponder on the incident 1. Why did it happen? Was it poverty? Was it neglect? Was it the frustration from being pushed around for too long? A bunch of ten years old kids acting like a martyr for so trifle a reason. It thoroughly reminded me of a picture of a young Chinese standing in front of a tank in protests for democratic reforms! The re-enacting of the gigantic scene took place right in front of my eyes, for the sake of five rupees. And the look of anger! They shouted back at us making angry gestures and they are just kids...that is the most troubling bit. They are kids and they are acting in a wrong fashion with no one to check them or correct them. Several grownups, probably who knew them, watched the show, not saying a single word...not asking them to behave in a proper fashion, not telling them that it is not wise to settle everything by violence. They are a bunch of misguided little kids and they are walking the wrong path in the wrong time. Not that there is any right time for walking the wrong path. But this is the time when the clay is soft and it can be moulded into any fashion. A crooked shape is the least wanted.
I remember that I had seen an episode in a television series by the name of Ehsaas. It was about a middleclass man stuck in a bus-depot for a night, along with few other people. All night long they talked about the cancer of poverty that was holding our country back. They offered many solutions for the problem (I don’t remember the details). A group of coolies were sitting in the far corner of the bus-depot, surrounding a merrily crackling fire. The protagonist of the episode left the company of the fellow strangled passengers, probably bored by their conversations and went over to the fire to warm his hands.
One of the coolies said to him, ‘Babu, I have heard everything you fine people were saying over there. Honestly tell me, do any of you people intend to make the conditions of the poor people better? Will that man give his warm shawl to any of us? No. The answer is no. You need people like us to stay poor so that the society remains balanced. If we become rich, who will carry your bags?’
Saying this, he laughed.
Perhaps he is true. With all our talks about making this world a better place to live in, we never really mean them. Deep inside we never want the downtrodden to come up.
I will give you another anecdote. I was a kid back then. I used to play a lot of cricket back then. For some days, a lot of our team members were not coming to the ground because of some reasons and the remaining few of us teamed up with some the boys of from the servant’s quarter and continued our games. It was fun. They were fine players.
Two or three days after, the father of one of our team mates caught up with me and asked me why we were playing with them (meaning our new team members). I could not think of anything to say. ‘Because they are good players’, I said to him.
He told me that his son was not going to play with us as long as we associated ourselves with the likes of them. I did not see the boy in the fields for a long time after that.
I was too young back then to call him sick. But his behaviour did appear weird to me.
Now there is another event like this, but from the other side.
I was not a kid back then. I was a teenager. Every day, while coming back from tuitions, I used to have fuchka at a roadside portable-store. The man who sold the fuchka was old and always grumpy. One day, the man got into an argument with another man with the amount that man owed him, for the fuchka. The customer appeared to be a well to do man, from his attire. After settling the argument, and paying the money, as the customer was going away, the fuchka-seller shouted to his back, ‘Yes, yes I know. You are a gentleman and we are ____man (the word he used is too inappropriate to put into writing)’.
And there was this same anger in his voice, which I noticed in the eyes of the rebellious kids.
Days come, days go and we never think about what is going on around us. We lie cosily in our rooms, shutting the door. But this overwhelming disorder, all this wrong and violent eruptions prevail.
But often a cool breeze brings peace after a very hot day.
Incident 2:I was sitting in the bus for Kolkata, mulling over all these things when a sharply sweet smell found its way into my nose. And a sweet voice found its way into my ears.
A small girl was selling incense sticks.
‘Dada, dhupkathi neben? Aek packet dosh taka. Du packet kuri taka. Tin packet tirish taka. Char packet chollis taka. Dada neben? Ami school dress kinbo ei takate. Dada nin na...khub sundor gondho. Agun lagalei dhore jay ar onekkhon teke. Dada didi neben?’
‘Brother, will you please buy incense sticks? One packet-ten rupees, two packets-twenty rupees, three packets-thirty rupees, four packets-forty rupees. Will you please buy it from me? I want to buy my school dress with the money. Please buy it, sirs, it has a beautiful fragrance. It lights immediately and stays for a long time. Will you buy one from me?’
She was speaking in such a sweet voice that it made me forget what I was thinking a few moments ago. Normally, I would have paid no attention to the seller, but this girl was different.
She was a kid and a sweet kid.
I beckoned her.
‘I will buy one’, I said to her, even though I did not need it and never intended to burn it. And so did some people in the bus. They bought the packets of incense sticks from her.
She thanked everybody in her low and childish voice and got off the bus. I looked at her for a long time and smiled. She went to a hawker, probably her father, and both of them left.